Sorry. I had to wait for Maxis to send me a 3G broadband modem. I wonder why the guy told me just need to 24hours to get my modem... =.=''

So far, the speed is acceptable. I subscribe the 384kbps package (for testing purposes) and I get about 250kbps. They do block my torrents but it will allow almost full speed after midnight until 6am. I wanna upgrade maybe in the next couple of months. heh.

Anyways, I am considering of quiting my current job. It's too hectic, tiring and emotional depressing. As I've wrote before, this is like my past past jobs but with higher pay. I'm considering to go back to 3D modelling and rendering.

The first month, I was really damn happy working here. But not anymore. My hardwork not being appreciated. No matter what I do, there will be mistakes, and I'm doing things that I'm not supposed to be doing. I applied for the advertising position. Not PC maintenance. They said, these PCs are under my jurisdiction. Hmm.. please look back to at my daily tasks.

These few weeks, I've been under a "new" floor manager. Well, he's actually a nice guy, but I think the pressure got into him. I don't appreciate people who doesnt follow "chain of command". I am still under my boss. So if he need things done he should liaise with my boss first (my boss totally agrees). It's very rude to jump ranks. There is a reason why my boss is sitting there. He aint no robot or dummy. I also don't appreciate people who asks for my report or status during lunch hour. I thought that I'm entitled for 1 hour of lunch? It's one and only time for me to clear my head, and detoxify all of these stress. Nowadays, all of the guys working under my boss are avoiding the floor manager. We don't hate him. We don't hate his nags. We hate how he treats us.

We are not babies. Just tell us one time, and one time only. Don't do a triple MSN, with a "can you please come and see me" combos. I take notes, and lots of notes. I think, I have more papers on my desks than anyone here in this building.

Today, I thought of packing my bag and just go home. Fire me. I don't care. When you've lost the passion to work, all of your job would be..."empty".

The first month, I do lots of research for my boss. Sometimes he would come over and tell me to get 2-3 infos about some games. I gave him 10 infos. Sometimes need maybe 10 links to nice websites (beneficial to the company), I gave him 40. Why? Because he made me love my job. And I did! I got loads of "good job!" remarks from him. Nowadays, I get loads of "fuck you"s from the floor manager. Can't he see that I'm working my ass off here? Doesnt he feel lucky to have someone who is willing to go back home late just to make sure everything works properly? Someone that won't think "oh, it's 6pm. I can go back home now and continue tomorrow, because in the aggrement my working hour is 9am-6pm"? I even come to the office on Sundays if something goes wrong.

I'm almost 31..but I cried in the office twice. I just can't believe wherever I work, people will treat me like a slave. My mom and gf told me that I'm "too kind to people". I can't bear to know that something's wrong or a job not done before I leave the office (i went back at midnight, twice, todate). I call it "being responsible". Some people call it "stupid". I agree with the later.

I'm thinking of quiting and go back to 3D...or maybe apply for a position in the Customer Service. I'm gonna get myself a new PC in the next 1-2 weeks time just to learn back 3DSMax and Vray (i still love Vray).

On a slight note, I'm going to Sarawak again this 27th until 31st. Anything that i can get for you guys? :)


Interesting Quotes from interesting people:

"3D is the future. Don't quit doing 3D."
- Mr Lim KC, Mirage Works

"You are not getting a 5 figure salary. So why the extra work? Go home."
-my current boss (bcoz this guy knows my problems. he's having the same problems as well)

"Fuck it."
- my current boss (it means, like, just ignore it. lol)

"There's a reason why people invented underwear.."
- my mom. lol.

"I wanna go home.."
- my gf, right after she reaches her office. :(


That's all for now. I'll write again soon, with the things and topics that I've promised.



Reading : PC Gamer, October issue
Listening : Lamb of God
Games : Rappelz (charname : Verthandi. Salamander server. Dual dirk critical Asura. Level30+)