Just wanna let you guys know that I've completed the project that I mentioned on my previous post. I've also bought a new mobile last week Sunday, it was an SE W910i. Despite the critics I find this "Best 2008 Mobilephone" is..the best ever phone I've ever use.
Anyway, I'm not really in a good mood right now, maybe tired. I keep getting coming in late to the office eventho I really try to wake up early. Sorry, HR. I'm trying...
For the sake of being moody..I'm going to post this video from Five Finger Death Punch, entitled "White Knuckles" (just the lyrics). I'll see you guys around. Oh..thanks for dropping by to my "emo corner of the world"
I don't know what to say. Just the fact that I'm too good to people, and the fact that I can't say 'NO' to favors. I have always been busy in the office but always have time to help guys in trouble or with favors. I have no problem spending 5minutes just to help see if the server is working fine or not, 5minutes to help reboot several PCs (which are not under my jurisdiction) , 5minutes to reset the modems, blablablabla.. You know why?
Because I like to help.
Why is it when it's my time to get some help in the office I get, "Sorry, I have no time for you" or "I'm busy!" instead?
All I wanted to ask was a simple Yes or No question.
Me :"Were you the one who did this?" Them: "Sorry, I have no time for you" Me :"It's a simple Yes or No question" Them: "I'm doing something urgent here" Me: "Oh..sorry to bother you..."
How rude. I never blow off people like that. Even the times when people really need my help, I would think first if I can settle it in just several minutes. If I can't I would politely say that I am busy and would attend to that person shortly when I have the time (and then most of the time I'd forget about it... sorry ya...*especially to Bethamy*)
My work has been slowed down for 2 weeks now because I have no idea of how to do programming or those server-side stuff (Apache,Mohawk or whatever). I was born a designer and the only programming I know is MS DOS Basic programming back in the 80's. Therefore, for my current project, I've forced myself to learn these PHP programming bullshit that I don't know even a small bit. All I know about PHP are 'IF' and 'END' tags. So, when the project is going really slow, people would come to me and say, "Can you please hurry up?" Fucking jibai suckers. I work alone, okay? Do you see me working with a programmer? And yeah, i've requested for programmers help. All i get is a blank stare and,
Boss : "duh..why do you need a programmer to help you with it?" Me : "err...these are programming stuff.." Boss : "do you know that the programmers are busy and fully occupied right now"
I was gonna say "so, let's just wait for them to finish" but it's gonna sound that I'm just being hostile. So i just told him, "oh yeah, if I get into any problem, Google is my friend. No problem, man!"
But..people has also advised me to go ahead and do myself, because if I managed to pull it off, I would given the thumbs up.
Or maybe I'm just stupid and all I know is to say, "Yeah you're right!"
I just don't want to say anything anymore to HR because I would be labeled as a crybaby. But I do hope that they noticed that I'm late for work for 2 months straight now (but check out what time I usually go back, and take note what time my boss comes in and out). That would actually tells you something. It's not exactly my intention to come late every day, it's just that every morning when I open my eyes from sleep, I would tell myself, "Another hell.."
Sorry by the way..I don't kiss anyone's ass.
Ah fuck..tomorrow is another day. Bye.
p.s: Bethamy, I hope you're doing fine learning 3DStudio Max. It's very easy, ok. Go get some wallpapers with cool 3D renders and set it as your desktop wallpaper and then tell yourself, "I can do that too. Piece of cake." So everyday when you turn on the PC, you'll see the wallpaper first, and every singel day much closer to your ambition/dream.
